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Have you ever been working on a big project, and you look around and think, “There’s nothing more! “I’m almost done with this thing”? But do you think you’re getting closer to that finish line, which seems further away? Yes. That’s what this studio project feels like to me.
I promised to give a progress update today and I have high hopes that the cabinets in the office area of the studio will be finished today. Not only has that not happened, but I haven’t really gotten much done since the last time I showed you the progress, which was after installing my faux crown molding around the top cabinets and cubby bridge.
Literally all I’ve done since then is add wood filler to the nail holes and cracks and sand half the cabinets. So now they look like this, the right half of the cabinets is ready for primer (I decided to caulk after priming), and the left half still looks like it has chicken pox…
I had high hopes, but actually Matt had a rough week. And when Matt has a rough time, I need more time to take care of him, so I have less time to work on projects. The week started well. Monday was normal, so I was able to finish filling the wood and sanding a bit.
But Matt had a terrible Monday evening and night. And his terrible evening and night became my terrible evening and night. So by Tuesday morning, I was so tired I couldn’t open my eyes or work. That day he did not get out of bed so we had dinner in the bedroom.
I can’t stand eating in the bedroom, but when your husband has a chronic illness that leaves him so tired that he can’t get out of bed for days, you learn what to do. So we ate while watching a show, and as soon as I finished eating, I fell asleep (not on purpose) and slept until 7:30 pm!!! I couldn’t believe it when I woke up at 7:30!!! Alas, I am not a daytime sleeper. That’s not what I do. But obviously I was mentally and physically exhausted.
So the shoot was completely over that day. After sleeping all afternoon, Matt was still struggling when he woke up, work was the last thing on my mind. Then Wednesdays are my “lunch with Mom and Rod” day. (Rod is my brother.) And on Wednesday evenings our church group meets at our house. So there was no time for studio progress on Wednesday.
I was sure I could get a lot done yesterday, but nope. That didn’t happen. For reasons I won’t go into (but dealing with a medical appointment), yesterday was a very bad, depressing, depressing day for Matt (and me), Matt ended the day in tears saying, “I feel hopeless. ” That broke my heart. The day ended with both of us in a very bad frame of mind. So needless to say studio projects were the last thing on my mind yesterday as well.
And that brings us to today. The studio cabinets are as full as they were on Monday when I went to bed. The good thing is that Matt and I both slept well last night and woke up this morning feeling much better. (It’s amazing what a good night’s sleep can do for one’s psyche and mental health!) First thing this morning, Matt was laughing and joking. We both laughed together. The mood seemed light and he said, “I feel much better mentally today.” After yesterday, that was a relief to hear. Matt is usually a very cheerful, happy, easy-going person, so when he comes down and even says he’s depressed, it’s a serious thing. It’s rare for him to be in that mood, and I’m very grateful for that.
So from here on out, I think I want to follow the same mindset with my studio that I have with our addition. I won’t stress about it and promise I’ll get it This thing It did That particular dateI want more”When it’s done it’s doneAttitude about it, and keep stress low. Matt and I both benefit from it. The reality is that Matt has been struggling since he was in the hospital last October and needs my time and attention more than he ever did. I don’t understand why it happened, but now our life is different than before. And frankly, he’s more important than any home project I have in progress.
So hopefully I can get more work done on these cabinets today and tomorrow. But if not, I don’t stress about it. They are done when they are done. 😀 In the meantime, I always stare at the finished wall in the studio. It still makes me laugh.
Addicted 2 Decorating shares my DIY and decorating journey as I renovate and decorate the 1948 Fixer Upper that my husband, Matt, and I purchased in 2013. Matt has MS and is unable to do physical activity, so I do most of the housework myself. You can learn more about me here.
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